House of Jealouxy

sebenernya males nge post disini lagi,tapi pengen ngiklan! kk gue punya toko " house of jealouxy " skrg udah buka di level 1 @grand indonesia. di toko yg namanya Abacus. limited edition,and mostly only one style per item, hand made!

http://houseofjealouxy.blogspot.com :-)

new blog!

HUI HUI HUI!!
made a new blog page. i don't know why i did that
but.... yea. sepertinya akan pindah ke blog baru.
gatau deng.
check my blog,and re-link. would you ppl? :):)

http://midnightgrapes.blogspot.com

see ya!

" in life,people come and people go. but u learn to know that,the people who stay are the ones who will always be there,through all the bullshit,drama,good or bad times. they will be beside you,and u realize those are the only people that u truly need " -Unknown

spend my sat night with my mom,went to plaza indonesia.. chit-chat,window shopping,and i bought L.A Candy from Lauren Conrad,ok.. i already know that im sooo late.and i bought the 2nd book " sweet little lies " first.so... im lil bit confused, which book should i read first?i already read half of the " sweet little lies " book. emm.. emm

i was browsing,and found this quote

"im moving on. no more waiting.no more hurt. if you wanted me you could've had me,but you didn't. you blew your chance. now i hope youre happy living ur life,wondering " what if you took ur chances with me?" cause im no longer here. im no longer waiting"

and i was like... " hell yeah! " hahaha. oops. sorry but i forgot where i found this. if this urs then tell me,then i would put the credit asap! sorry for put this,and not ask ur permission before.. i love this too much :) ok,back to the topic, well,what can i say? now i just hoping that you would happy. and i'll try to search the right one.. :)

xx , I

dear you. well i know you wouldn't spend your time to read this,i already let you go,like.. finally.
but i couldn't lie that i still... still.. you know what i mean,right? i accidentally saw your facebook account. and i .. opened it. there you are. and im falling for you.. all over again.

ok ok... i already let you go... already...already....

shit. this is such an emo post.

gue mau bikin pengakuan........
gue ngefans banget sama blog seseorang.
cowok. isinya tuh bisa ngebuat langsung ketawa2 sendiri
padahal galucu.
jadi ya gitu.... ngefans.
trus gimana dong.
ya ga gimana2.
mau ngomong ke dia. tp gimana caranya
ntar sok kenal gitu lagi.
udah ah.
anggep aja post ini ga pernah ada......

btw. thanks for your supports guys for my latest post about my dad.
i love you

Love, I.

i want you back :(

RT @_jnt: Most of you don't know how does it feel to be.. Dad-less.

RT @_jnt: Hating your dad&think that he doesn't exist doesn't count as dad-less. At least he still there, breathing.

RT @_jnt: So just go forgive him for whatever shit he made before everything is too fucking late.

dan gue nangis sekarang.
kadang bener2 nyes banget kalo lagi pergi.. terus liat anak seumuran gue jalan sama bokapnya,bisa ketawa2 gitu. ato liat foto orang2,bisa foto sekeluarga,bisa foto sama bokapnya. serius.. lo bener2 harus bersyukur masih dapet kesempatan lebih banyak daripada orang lain.
kadang gw suka gimana gitu kalo baca orang nulis " gw benci bokap gw,mati aja lo sana " no offense guys. gue juga pasti dulu pernah kesel bgt sm bokap gue,tapi nyuruh dia mati,jgn ucapin kata2 itu sembarangan. lo sama sekali gak tau gimana rasanya ditinggalin orang paling berharga di hidup lo. lo gaktau rasanya ga ketemu bokap lo berbulan2,bertahun2. mungkin emang ada bokap lo yang ngeselin ato gimana.. tapi jgn pernah deh ngomong kata2 kyk gt

pas kemaren gue lagi agama,bab jenazah kalo ga salah. gue bener2 ngebayangin bokap gue. gimana perasaan gue pas liat dia. dan itu sesakit2nya perasaan yang paling ada. ditinggalin cowo yang lo suka,musuhan sama temen lo,ato apalah,ga ada yg sesakit ditinggalin orang tua sendiri,apalagi secara tiba2.

aku kangen banget pa. papa yang selalu marah2 kalo ac kedinginan,papa yang selalu gabisa tidur sebelom aku pulang,papa yang kalo ngetok kamar udah kea mau nge gebrak,papa yang tiap pagi nganter aku sekolah,papa yang overprotective,papa yang ngelarang aku makan indomie,papa yang mau nentuin pacar aku nanti siapa,papa yang tiap pagi selalu narik kaki aku biar bangun. papa yang selalu ada kapanpun aku butuh.

kadang gue masih selalu nyalahin diri gue sendiri. dulu gue banyak bgt dapet tanda2 kalo dia mau pergi.. kenapa ga manfaatin waktu.. waktu lg jalan sm dia,ada bendera kuning,dia blg " wah ada bendera kuning,siapa yg meninggal ya? " aku gatau kenapa aku langsung jleb gitu pa. waktu papa masuk ke kamar aku,tidur2an lama di kasur aku,bilang ini kamar favorite papa,dan aku nyuekin. pas mau pergi,aku ga minta izin sama papa,besoknya papa udah pergi. maafin aku ya pa. kyknya dulu aku emang gatau diri bgt.

ya udahlah. papa udah disana kan ya,udah tenang banget disamping dia,udah bahagia kan. harus rela kan ya. papa kapan2 jenguk aku ya. udah lama papa ga nemuin aku.. :)

" if you have ever lost someone very important to you,then you already know how it feels,if you haven't,you cannot possibly imagine it. "